Adding to my recent collection of artwork inspired by the complex facets of a woman, this week we are visiting our inner child. She is free spirited, offers us the purest kind of joy, and often reminds us of the simplest pleasures; those which often bring the most meaning to our lives.
I must admit that I lost her somewhere in my twenties; those were hard times. But now she comes out often. When I brought art back in my life I gradually transformed into my happiest self. Everything else after that sort of fell into place after that. It’s amazing how that happens!
I still love lying in the grass, riding my bike, jumping in puddles in my rain boots, feeling snowflakes on my face, exploring new ideas, and experiencing new adventures. I think that this part of a woman is essential to our happiness and well-being. When we lose our inner child the darkest part of ourselves takes over, and we project that darkness and sadness onto those around us; often times those who are closest to us are most affected.
If any of you women out there have lost your inner child (and we all do from time to time), surround yourself by the people and experiences that have brought you the most joy, and I guarantee that she will come out again.
And if by chance you have never felt your inner child as an adult, I might suggest the following: recreate a happy experience from your childhood, try one new experience every day (even if it’s as simple as trying a new type of food), travel, do something that scares you, and meet new people as often as you can.
She is there waiting for you to let her run free.
Last week I sketched out The Warrior, a start to a collection of work inspired by the complexity of a woman. To be clear, this is not to say that women have multiple personalities such as those diagnosed with schizophrenia. Rather it is to say that if we are being honest with ourselves, there are many aspects of us that make us whole. Sometimes we are strong, sometimes we are scared little girls, and sometimes we are somewhere in between. In each chapter of our lives we change and become more than we were before, based on life circumstances. Sometimes we revert backwards, and sometimes we leap forward.
This week the sketch is entitled The Abandoned, which can be perceived by many in different ways. When I drew this I thought about it in relation to that moment when a girl becomes a woman. Not in the physical sense, but more so the point in life when I started to take care of myself on my own as a young adult.
In my experience, I feel that I was raised in a somewhat sheltered and conservative environment. I had a strong work ethic, intelligence, and this idea of who I was supposed to be, but looking back it seems that those ideas were in some ways planted in my head and I wasn’t truly choosing my own life.
I wish that when I was in that very fragile state of early womanhood, that there was someone there to offer guidance in following my dreams instead of working my ass off in a miserable job in the hopes of one day making a good salary. I wish there was someone there who taught me how to respect myself enough to be in a healthy relationship. I wish there was someone there to show me what a healthy relationship looks like. I wish that there was someone there to offer me a sense of strength and confidence to know when to walk away from someone who wasn’t treating me well. And so in many ways when I hit those lows in life, I felt abandoned.
I believe that every woman has felt some sense of abandonment at one time or another. I think about children who are without mothers and/ or fathers, teenagers living in homes with unhealthy parent relationships, wives abandoned by husbands, woman in arranged marriages, and the list goes on and on. The thing is, all of the adults in my life in those darkest moments did the best that they could with what they knew at that time. As children and teenagers we expect adults to be all-knowing. But in reality many adults make just as many mistakes as children. Many adults struggle to have their own healthy relationships and their own personal successes, so it would be unfair to expect them to teach their children what they do not know themselves.
The bright side of this very dark blog entry is that by hitting those lows (maybe for some over and over again), eventually many of us become stronger for it, and shoot for the stars!
The Warrior is the first sketch of a collection that will encompass the topic of the complexity of women. We are a myriad of facets, exquisitely put together in a very powerful way. We are compassionate yet ruthless, intelligent, cunning, peaceful, elegant, kind and graceful. We are all of these things wrapped together in a way that makes us desirable yet for some, quite intimidating.
As I looked back on the great artists of the past, I realized that throughout history female subjects have often been portrayed as either property or objects of affection. Rarely have they ever been depicted as the complex individuals that we are. Only recently have we seen more and more artists create work that shows strength in women. I am reminded of this in work such as Amy Sherald’s portrayal of the beautiful first lady, Michelle Obama.
And so my idea is this...
In honor of women everywhere, my challenge will be to create a collection of large scale paintings, each depicting one facet of the complex woman. My first painting will be the warrior. She will be strong and unforgiving, using her courage to humbly fight for those who are not strong enough to help themselves. She will be their voice.
In the coming weeks, I hope to have some additional sketches. Stay tuned!
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I was very excited and nervous to take on a commissioned portrait for a very dear person in my life. As it is a work in progress, I sent over pictures of my work to make sure it was turning out as she envisioned. And while the portrait is quite accurate (if I do say so myself), I learned that the person in the portrait is very self-conscious of certain features. So I was asked to make some slight adjustments, which of course I’m happy to do.
However, this got me to thinking about the way that we see ourselves and why we aren’t ever happy with how we look as is, without angles and without filters. We market ourselves on social media to portray these fictional characters and perfect lives that only exist in movies, books and fashion magazines.
And the funny thing is those closest to us, who see us in our worst and best states, who see us in our darkest and lightest moments, think we’re much more beautiful as we are than how we portray ourselves in those filtered images we put on Instagram and Facebook. Yet we all do it because let’s be honest, it makes us feel good when acquaintances and strangers tell us how great we look, how cute of a couple we are, or how beautiful our kids our. I still can’t figure out why we need that validation...perhaps it’s human nature.
I created this self-portrait on a very dark Saturday night in 2011, drunk on Martell VSOP. I was angry and sad. Don’t lie, you’ve all been there at some point in your lives;)
It was the perfect state of mind for an artist to do her best work, ha! Meanwhile when I look back at it, I like how raw it is. I like how cold and angry I look, and how I faced myself dead on in the mirror like I was challenging myself to get over it. I like that I just drew what I saw, without skewing the image to make myself look thinner or prettier. It was simply me in that moment.
I’ll leave you with this. You are beautiful as you are, so don’t forget to let people see you that way from time to time.
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I painted “A Broken Man” about a month ago. At the time I painted it, I didn’t really understand where it came from. It was one of those surreal moments where I was painting without thinking and then all of a sudden it was just there. I can’t speak for all artists but when I paint I almost go into a sort of trance, where hours seem like minutes. Then I take a step back and shock myself with what I've created.
As I look at this painting more and more I’ve come to develop an intimate relationship with it. I’ve pieced together my subconscious with recent events in my life and it all makes sense.
Like most people life has beat me up a bit. Relationships have not been kind to me and I assumed, like most people assume, that I was the broken one. And then something interesting happened...
Someone from my far away past found his way back into my life, whom at the time I had very strong feelings for. When this relationship ended, it ended in a very terrible way that ripped through my heart. It took me a long time to feel whole again. Over time those feelings faded and the recent contact was more of an apology for being an ass rather than any sort of hope of rekindling or reviving something that was lost.
Through our brief conversations I came to the realization that this man has been broken his whole life. It is very clear to me that he is still broken. Then I further realized that in the few somewhat longer relationships that I have had I have always been with men who are severely broken in some way; mentally unstable, emotionally unstable, and/ or socially awkward. I now think that it was because I thought I was broken and that we could be broken together, which is in itself is a very destructive way to begin a relationship.
Most recently I started dating someone who said to me something to the affect of, maybe instead of thinking of yourself as being strange for having been in relationships that haven’t worked out, perhaps you could instead think of yourself as being strong for being able to walk away when you figured out that you weren’t right for each other. It was a really nice thing to hear from someone who is relatively a stranger.
A broken man needs to heal himself before he can share his life with someone else. (Perhaps that is what my past man is trying to do.) And perhaps at one time I was a broken woman but I haven’t been for a long time and this painting has helped me to realize that. Woah, mind blown!
Now that I’ve figured out what the hell this painting means, I’m ready to let it go!
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In honor of Halloween I sketched out this little gal this morning...with her pet crow of course. Who doesn’t love witches and crows around Halloween time? Charcoal is the perfect medium to use for dark, spooky drawings. It can be heavy yet soft, fluid, and adds a hint of whimsy to just about anything. I like the finished drawings because they often look like a dream.
I also love charcoal because it’s very forgiving in the sense that if you mess up, you can just wipe it out quickly and keep going. It gives you room to make many mistakes without having to start completely over. Woah, think about that as it relates to life....mind-blown!
This Halloween I invite you to do something that scares you, become someone else for a night, or just eat a lot of candy! Enjoy these moments and holidays because they go by fast. Happy Halloween everyone!
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One of the most difficult aspects of being an artist is when to consider an art piece finished. I can work on something for a day, a month, and sometimes a year or longer. Certain artworks tell you when they’re done, but most can be reworked over and over again, and they can drive you absolutely bonkers.
Last week I sketched out this piece with charcoal onto a giant canvas (48”W x 30”H) with the intention of painting it sometime in the near future. I was sitting with my friends last night having a drink at Mordecai, and they asked me if I was working on anything new, so I showed them my very early stage of this painting. To my surprise they both thought that it looked finished!
This week I ask for your help and honest feedback. Does this look like a finished piece of artwork? Could you see this in a gallery, bar, or restaurant as is? Please comment to your liking and don’t hold back. Don’t worry, we artists are used to constant criticism which is probably why we are so often closed off from the rest of society, ha! But that’s a story for another day;)
Andy Warhol once said, “The idea is not to live forever, but to create something that will.” As an artist I am constantly pushing the creative side of my brain. I often struggle with the idea of creating something original. I think to myself, what does that really mean? Don’t all ideas come from something, someone, or somewhere that already exists?
But what I’ve realized is that everything about me is unique. The way I think, the ideas that I come up with, and especially the way my hand touches the canvas. Yes my thoughts may stem from a new artist I’ve recently discovered, or from a story that inspired me, or an experience that I had, but ultimately what comes out on canvas is absolutely mine. It is my distinctive interpretation of a moment or idea.
Keeping the creative process in mind, I thought today that I would share with you the beginning of a new project. When summer is over and that first chill comes into the air, I love to go into those deep sleeps. You know the ones, where you wake up completely rested and feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders. And so I began by taking photos, and sketching out a figure drawing onto this ginormous canvas that I bought on a whim last week. I can already imagine what it will look like when I’m done (although it rarely turns out that way).
I guess the point of this week’s story is that I hope you understand that everything about YOU is unique as well! There is no one else exactly like you, and that in itself makes your ideas, your thoughts, and your creativity your own. The sum of it is that unless you share it with others, it stays locked up forever in your head and eventually forgotten. Share your thoughts, share your opinions, and most of all, share your creativity with others. It is what makes us human and ultimately what inspires us to feel, to innovate, and to grow intellectually and emotionally.
Ahhh the tattoo; either you love them or you hate them. As an artist I’ve always found tattoos to be quite beautiful, or in some cases I find them to show our ugliest and darkest sides in the most beautiful way.
They are often the greatest form of self-expression and in some cases may even console one’s own spirit and mind. Why do people so often get tattoos symbolizing a loved one, a belief, or a significant moment in life? When people brand their bodies with something that noteworthy, it is the highest form of honor that you can give to a person, or a belief, or a moment. Every time you look at it, you feel.
The white calla lily has always been my favorite flower. It has a simple, natural beauty. I read somewhere that is the official death flower of Tibet (not sure if that’s true), and if I've ever pictured a heaven I’ve pictured a field of calla lilies. If I ever had a daughter, I imagined I would name her Lily. When I look at them, they make me tranquilly happy and in some ways represent a lost innocence.
I’ve decided to place the tattoo on the nape of my neck. It will represent a kind of eloquent struggle of embracing the natural beauty of life and perhaps letting go of some things that life didn’t give me. It’s almost a sort of powerful closure if you will, hence the title, “The Powerful Eloquent Tattoo". The arts just have this awesome way of satisfying our emotions; enough said.
Til next time folks!
If you’ve never practiced yoga I encourage you to give it a try. Why do I love yoga so much? Well, if you let it take you over, it truly balances your mental, emotional and physical state. It's almost as though you have to humbly surrender to your practice in order for it to have an impact. You must be able to clear your mind of all thoughts and just focus on your breath. It's not easy but man, when you do it the right way it really makes you feel amazing!
In some ways yoga allows you to let go of bad energy and focus on accepting yourself for who you are, as you are. I’m sure it sounds cheesy but I believe that if you don’t take care yourself you really are no good to anyone else around you.
During one of my practices this week I was asked to close my eyes, sit up tall, and imagine this sort of white light or energy, gradually moving up my spine. I was asked to think of this energy as my spirit. I can only tell you that whether it be the power of the practice or my imagination, I really felt this awesome energy flowing up my spine. Whoa, crazy, right? And when I was done, all of the stress from the week just fell off my shoulders.
The energy within each of us is so strong and it affects everyone around us. If we practice seeing our energy in a white light and really noticing how it can be used for good instead of evil (hehe), all of us would be much better off. So I say yogi it up my friends! Worse case you get physically stronger than your present state, best case you balance your life and positively affect everyone around you. Wouldn't that be a nice world to live in?
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